Have you ever felt alone? No where to turn for an answer? No hope? No future? Trapped, unable to move forward in your life?
I found this photo this morning as I was making final preparations in my hotel room to speak to an organization this afternoon in Arizona. I remember those feelings. In fact, I can still smell the despair in my hospital room, though it’s been over 13 years.
The halo and neck brace made it impossible for me to even look at my own son. A simple glance around the room was unrealistic at best. My hand around him was comforting, although I could not feel it. Please understand, I am so grateful today that this young 3 year old never left my side, even at his mother’s request to go home in the evening hours. His determination to just be there, even if I could not physically feel it, was his only quest. “I’m staying here, mom. I’m staying to help dad.” I mean really, how much help could he render? He couldn’t help me shower. Not strong enough to help me transfer. Truthfully, his youthful body limited him in his capacity to physically assist in any of my personal care.